Sometimes life has a way of changing everything in a single moment. We make plans, we build
routines, we have dreams of what tomorrow will look like, and then suddenly life throws us a
curveball.
For me, that curveball came with a diagnosis of cancer.
No one expects to hear those words. When you do, your perspective changes almost instantly. You
begin looking through a completely different lens.
It's amazing how quickly life can come into focus.
The things I thought were so important yesterday suddenly don't seem nearly as important today.
Deadlines, schedules, and the things that used to consume my attention all begin to fade into the
background.
Instead, my eyes are drawn to what really matters: my relationship with God, my family, the people
I love, the conversations I don't want to leave unsaid, and the hope that can only come from
Christ.
I've learned that the diagnosis didn't just change my circumstances—it challenged the lens through
which I viewed them.
Every morning I have a choice. I can pick up the lens of fear. Or I can pick up the lens of faith.
The diagnosis doesn't change. The doctor's report doesn't change. The appointments don't change.
But the lens I choose changes everything about how I walk through it.
The lens of fear magnifies the unknown. The lens of faith magnifies God's presence.
The lens of fear asks, "What if?" What if the treatment doesn't work? What if the cancer spreads?
What if I lose the life I've planned? Fear is very good at asking questions.
But faith asks a different question. "Where is God in this?" And the answer is... Exactly where
He's always been. Right beside me. Before the diagnosis. During the diagnosis. And long after the
diagnosis.
And one of the clearest ways God has shown me His presence has been through my wife.
This is a journey neither one of us would have ever chosen. It wasn't part of our plans. It wasn't
the future we envisioned together. Yet from the moment we heard the diagnosis, she has never left
my side.
She has been my greatest encourager, gently reminding me to keep looking through the lens of faith
whenever I find myself tempted to look through the lens of fear. On days when my strength has been
weak, she has pointed my eyes back to Christ. When I've wrestled with uncertainty, she's reminded
me of God's faithfulness. When words have been hard to find, she's prayed. When tears have come,
she's been there. Through every appointment, every conversation, every unknown, we've walked this
road together.
I'm incredibly grateful that God didn't ask me to walk this journey alone. He gave me a wife whose
faith has strengthened mine, whose love has reminded me daily of God's love, and whose presence
has been one of His greatest gifts during this season. I truly believe that sometimes God comforts
us not only through His Spirit, but through the people He lovingly places beside us. She has been
that gift to me.
Fear says, "Hide." Hide your pain. Hide your questions. Hide your tears. Pretend you're okay.
Carry the burden yourself.
Faith says, "Go." Go to the Father. Go to His Word. Go to Him in prayer. Go to the people He's
placed in your life. Go to the church family that will walk beside you. Go even when you don't
have all the answers.
Because faith isn't pretending everything is okay. Faith is trusting God when everything isn't
okay.
Isaiah 41:10 reminds us: "Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will
strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand."
Notice what God doesn't promise. He doesn't promise that we'll never hear bad news. He doesn't
promise that life won't hurt. He doesn't promise that we'll understand everything. He promises His
presence. "I am with you."
Sometimes His greatest miracle isn't removing the storm. Sometimes it's carrying us through it.
As I've walked through this journey, my prayer has become very simple: "Lord, carry me. I don't
have the strength for this on my own. Give me Your strength when mine runs out. Give me Your peace
when fear wants to take over. Help me to trust You one day at a time."
I also believe this with all my heart: God is still the Great Physician. He is my source of hope.
He is my healer. He is my peace.
But I also believe that God, in His wisdom, has chosen to work through people. He has given
doctors knowledge, surgeons skill, researchers insight, and nurses compassionate hearts. Luke, who
wrote one of the Gospels, was a physician. Throughout history, God has used ordinary people with
extraordinary gifts to care for others.
When I meet with my doctors, I don't see it as choosing medicine over faith. I see it as trusting
God through the very people He has equipped.
I pray before every appointment. I pray for wisdom for my doctors. I pray for steady hands in
surgery. I pray for effective treatments. Because every good and perfect gift comes from God.
So today, I'm choosing to see through the lens of faith. Not because I know what tomorrow holds.
But because I know Who holds tomorrow.
And I'm thankful that as I follow Him, I don't have to walk this road alone. God walks before me.
His Spirit walks within me. My wife faithfully walks beside me. Together, we're learning to trust
Him one day at a time, choosing to see every challenge through the lens of faith instead of fear.
If you're reading this today and carrying your own diagnosis, your own grief, your own unanswered
prayer, or your own unexpected curveball, I want to encourage you.
You can't always choose what happens to you. But you can choose the lens through which you'll see
it.
Choose the lens that reminds you God is faithful. Choose the lens that reminds you His promises
are true. Choose the lens that reminds you His presence is greater than your fear.
Because cancer doesn't get the final word. Fear doesn't get the final word. Jesus does.
And that's the lens I'm choosing to look through.