Journal

Notes fromthe worship road.

Honest reflections from thirty-five years of leading worship, what I've learned, what I'm still learning, and the moments that keep drawing me back to the cross.

Spring 2026

01

On Tuning Before You Play

The discipline of tuning a guitar is not so different from the discipline of tuning a heart. Both require silence, attention, and a willingness to make small, repeated adjustments long before anyone else hears the song.

A guitar doesn't drift out of tune all at once, it slips a little at a time. So does the soul. A rushed week, a neglected prayer, a quiet compromise, a forgotten rest, and suddenly the tone is off, even if the instrument looks the same on the outside.

Tuning demands that you stop. That you listen closely. That you compare what you hear to a standard outside yourself, a pitch that does not change with weather, mood, or circumstance.

In worship, that pitch is Christ. His Word. His presence. His unchanging faithfulness.

And just like a guitar, the heart needs this daily. Not once a month. Not only before a service. Every morning, every season, every time the strings feel a little tight or a little slack.

Because the song you offer in public is shaped by the tuning you do in private. And long before anyone hears the melody, God hears the intention, the quiet work of aligning your heart to His.

SPRING 2026

02

When the Room Is Quiet

Some of the most formative worship I've ever led happened in rooms of twelve people. No lights, no crowd, no production, just voices, hearts, and the quiet hum of grace.

The platform is not where worship is forged. It's refined in the unseen places, the kitchen where prayers rise with the aroma of morning coffee, the chair where Scripture whispers before the day begins, the empty sanctuary where silence becomes a song.

That's where worship is born, in the stillness that teaches you to listen, in the ordinary moments that remind you He's near. Because when the room is quiet, you realize worship was never about sound. It was always about surrender.

SPRING 2026

03

Grove Church in the Ordinary

I've loved the work of our local church. Sunland isn't a stage, it's a soil. And soil takes time. It asks for patience, presence, and the kind of faith that grows quietly beneath the surface.

After more than ten years in the same ground, you begin to see what roots can do. They hold steady through drought and storm. They find water where others see dust. They teach you that fruit doesn't come from hurry, but from staying, from tending, from trusting.

This is the beauty of Grove Church: the ordinary rhythm of grace that deepens with every season. It's not about spotlight or speed, but about the slow miracle of growth, the kind that happens when you keep showing up to the same soil, and God keeps showing up too.

Summer 2026

04

Holy Ground

A meditation on Moses at the burning bush and the truth that the holy ground beneath us is the presence of Christ Himself.

When Moses approached the burning bush, he wasn't standing in a cathedral. There were no stained‑glass windows, no choir, no liturgy. Just desert sand, a shepherd's staff, and a bush that refused to burn out.

And yet God said, "Take off your sandals, for the place where you are standing is holy ground." What made it holy wasn't the geography. It wasn't the mountain. It wasn't the moment. It was the Presence.

Holy ground has never been about the dirt beneath your feet, it has always been about the God who stands before you.

Moses didn't stumble into a sacred place. He stumbled into a sacred Person.

And that changes everything.

Because if holy ground is a Person, then it can meet you anywhere. In the quiet of your living room. In the chaos of your commute. In the ache of disappointment. In the joy of answered prayer. In the ordinary Tuesday where nothing feels spiritual at all.

Christ Himself is the Holy Ground we stand on, the One who makes the common sacred, the mundane meaningful, the wilderness a sanctuary.

Moses removed his sandals because you don't bring the dust of your journey into the presence of a holy God. But in Christ, something even more astonishing happens: He steps into our dust. He enters our wilderness. He makes our ground holy by His nearness.

Holy ground is not a place you find. It's a Person who finds you.

And when you realize that, you begin to see burning bushes everywhere, moments where Christ interrupts your ordinary with His extraordinary, where He calls your name, where He invites you to draw near, where He reminds you that the ground beneath you is held together by His presence.

This is the mystery: We don't stand on holy ground because we are holy. We stand on holy ground because He is here.

Summer 2026

05

Rooted

A song about being planted in Christ, drawing deep water in dry seasons and bearing fruit in His time.

Roots are honest. They don't chase applause. They don't rush. They go down before they ever reach out. And this is the way of the Kingdom, the way of those planted in Christ.

Scripture keeps returning to this image, almost as if God knows how easily we forget where true life comes from.

"Blessed is the one… whose delight is in the law of the Lord… He is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season.", Psalm 1:1–3

Planted. Not scattered. Not drifting. Not uprooted by every wind of circumstance.

Planted in Him.

When you are rooted in Christ, you learn that the deepest work happens underground, in the places no one sees. The prayers whispered in the dark. The Scriptures opened before dawn. The tears that water the soil when the season feels barren. The quiet trust that refuses to let go.

Jeremiah paints the same picture:

"Blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord… They will be like a tree planted by the water… It has no fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green.", Jeremiah 17:7–8

Heat comes. Drought comes. Dry seasons come. But the rooted do not wither, because their life is not drawn from the weather, but from the Water.

Christ is that Living Water. The One who said, "Whoever drinks the water I give them will never thirst." The One who invites the weary to come and drink freely. The One who turns deserts into gardens and wilderness into wells.

To be rooted in Christ is to sink your life into a Source that does not run dry.

And in time, His time, fruit appears. Not forced. Not manufactured. Not hurried. Fruit that grows because the roots held fast.

Jesus said, "Abide in Me… and you will bear much fruit." Not "try harder." Not "produce more." Just abide. Stay. Remain. Let your roots wrap around the Rock that cannot be moved.

This is the song of the rooted: Life in drought. Strength in heat. Green leaves in barren places. Fruit in the season God appoints.

Because when your roots are in Christ, the seasons may change, but the Source never does.

Summer 2026

06

Grace and Truth

Inspired by John 1, a song about the two things only Jesus has ever held together perfectly.

John opens his Gospel with a thunderclap: "The Word became flesh and dwelt among us… full of grace and truth." Not half grace and half truth. Not grace on some days and truth on others. Full of both. Always.

This is the miracle of Jesus, the tension no human has ever balanced without falling to one side or the other.

Truth without grace becomes a weapon. Grace without truth becomes an illusion. But in Christ, they are not opposites. They are not rivals. They are not two forces pulling in different directions. They are one Person, perfectly united, perfectly expressed.

Truth names us honestly. It reveals the cracks, the sin, the motives we'd rather hide. It calls things what they are. It refuses to flatter or pretend.

Grace meets us tenderly. It steps into the cracks. It covers the sin. It lifts the head of the ashamed and says, "You are mine."

And Jesus holds both without contradiction.

He speaks truth to the woman at the well, "You have had five husbands…" but He also offers her grace, "Whoever drinks the water I give will never thirst."

He tells the woman caught in adultery, "Go and sin no more," but only after He kneels in the dust to shield her from stones.

He confronts the Pharisees with piercing clarity, yet He eats with sinners who have nothing to offer Him but their need.

Grace does not dilute truth. Truth does not diminish grace. In Jesus, they illuminate each other.

John says, "From His fullness we have all received grace upon grace." Grace layered on grace. Mercy stacked on mercy. Not because truth is ignored, but because truth has been satisfied in Him.

At the cross, grace and truth meet in their fullest expression: Truth declares the weight of sin. Grace bears it. Truth demands justice. Grace provides it. Truth says the wages of sin is death. Grace says, "I will die in your place."

This is the Jesus we sing about, the One who never bends truth to make us comfortable, and never withholds grace to make us worthy.

He is the Word made flesh. The Light no darkness can overcome. The fullness of God walking among us. The only One who has ever held grace and truth in perfect harmony.

And when we stand in His presence, we are held by both, known completely, loved completely, called higher, drawn nearer.

This is the song: Grace that welcomes. Truth that transforms. Jesus who embodies both.

SUMMER 2026

07

Looking Through a Different Lens

Sometimes life has a way of changing everything in a single moment. We make plans, we build routines, we have dreams of what tomorrow will look like, and then suddenly life throws us a curveball.

For me, that curveball came with a diagnosis of cancer.

No one expects to hear those words. When you do, your perspective changes almost instantly. You begin looking through a completely different lens.

It's amazing how quickly life can come into focus.

The things I thought were so important yesterday suddenly don't seem nearly as important today. Deadlines, schedules, and the things that used to consume my attention all begin to fade into the background.

Instead, my eyes are drawn to what really matters: my relationship with God, my family, the people I love, the conversations I don't want to leave unsaid, and the hope that can only come from Christ.

I've learned that the diagnosis didn't just change my circumstances—it challenged the lens through which I viewed them.

Every morning I have a choice. I can pick up the lens of fear. Or I can pick up the lens of faith.

The diagnosis doesn't change. The doctor's report doesn't change. The appointments don't change. But the lens I choose changes everything about how I walk through it.

The lens of fear magnifies the unknown. The lens of faith magnifies God's presence.

The lens of fear asks, "What if?" What if the treatment doesn't work? What if the cancer spreads? What if I lose the life I've planned? Fear is very good at asking questions.

But faith asks a different question. "Where is God in this?" And the answer is... Exactly where He's always been. Right beside me. Before the diagnosis. During the diagnosis. And long after the diagnosis.

And one of the clearest ways God has shown me His presence has been through my wife.

This is a journey neither one of us would have ever chosen. It wasn't part of our plans. It wasn't the future we envisioned together. Yet from the moment we heard the diagnosis, she has never left my side.

She has been my greatest encourager, gently reminding me to keep looking through the lens of faith whenever I find myself tempted to look through the lens of fear. On days when my strength has been weak, she has pointed my eyes back to Christ. When I've wrestled with uncertainty, she's reminded me of God's faithfulness. When words have been hard to find, she's prayed. When tears have come, she's been there. Through every appointment, every conversation, every unknown, we've walked this road together.

I'm incredibly grateful that God didn't ask me to walk this journey alone. He gave me a wife whose faith has strengthened mine, whose love has reminded me daily of God's love, and whose presence has been one of His greatest gifts during this season. I truly believe that sometimes God comforts us not only through His Spirit, but through the people He lovingly places beside us. She has been that gift to me.

Fear says, "Hide." Hide your pain. Hide your questions. Hide your tears. Pretend you're okay. Carry the burden yourself.

Faith says, "Go." Go to the Father. Go to His Word. Go to Him in prayer. Go to the people He's placed in your life. Go to the church family that will walk beside you. Go even when you don't have all the answers.

Because faith isn't pretending everything is okay. Faith is trusting God when everything isn't okay.

Isaiah 41:10 reminds us: "Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand."

Notice what God doesn't promise. He doesn't promise that we'll never hear bad news. He doesn't promise that life won't hurt. He doesn't promise that we'll understand everything. He promises His presence. "I am with you."

Sometimes His greatest miracle isn't removing the storm. Sometimes it's carrying us through it.

As I've walked through this journey, my prayer has become very simple: "Lord, carry me. I don't have the strength for this on my own. Give me Your strength when mine runs out. Give me Your peace when fear wants to take over. Help me to trust You one day at a time."

I also believe this with all my heart: God is still the Great Physician. He is my source of hope. He is my healer. He is my peace.

But I also believe that God, in His wisdom, has chosen to work through people. He has given doctors knowledge, surgeons skill, researchers insight, and nurses compassionate hearts. Luke, who wrote one of the Gospels, was a physician. Throughout history, God has used ordinary people with extraordinary gifts to care for others.

When I meet with my doctors, I don't see it as choosing medicine over faith. I see it as trusting God through the very people He has equipped.

I pray before every appointment. I pray for wisdom for my doctors. I pray for steady hands in surgery. I pray for effective treatments. Because every good and perfect gift comes from God.

So today, I'm choosing to see through the lens of faith. Not because I know what tomorrow holds. But because I know Who holds tomorrow.

And I'm thankful that as I follow Him, I don't have to walk this road alone. God walks before me. His Spirit walks within me. My wife faithfully walks beside me. Together, we're learning to trust Him one day at a time, choosing to see every challenge through the lens of faith instead of fear.

If you're reading this today and carrying your own diagnosis, your own grief, your own unanswered prayer, or your own unexpected curveball, I want to encourage you.

You can't always choose what happens to you. But you can choose the lens through which you'll see it.

Choose the lens that reminds you God is faithful. Choose the lens that reminds you His promises are true. Choose the lens that reminds you His presence is greater than your fear.

Because cancer doesn't get the final word. Fear doesn't get the final word. Jesus does.

And that's the lens I'm choosing to look through.